Get Out

I was trying to get you ready for bed and you were fighting me every step of the way. Finally Daddy came in to give you a kiss and you settled down - you knew you were defeated. But as I was giving you kisses on the floor you got up and pulled on the door, "Get out" you said. "No Molly, we need to go to bed. It's bedtime." "Get out" you replied. "No, Molly, let's go get cozy." I wasn't getting it. "Get out, Mommy," you demanded. Oh, I got it. And I cried. I forgive you by the way and I love that you love your daddy but...ouch!!!????

YOU - the joy

Freaking gorgeous. Inside and out.

About Me

I wonder what you think about me. I wonder if you think I'm a good mom. I wonder if you look at me the way I look at you - with adoration. You woke up this morning around 5:15 am (an hour earlier than necessary) and I brought you to bed. I usually know better. You never go back to sleep with us. Instead, you will play with our hair and point out each eye and nose you can feel in the dark. I've actually looked forward to you falling asleep in our bed so many times, but you just don't. This morning you snuggled into my side and I thought, THIS IS IT! But alas, you started kicking your feet under the covers and giggled. Then you rubbed my face gently and kissed me over and over. I WILL TAKE THIS OVER SLEEPING :) I nuzzled your neck and let your fine, soft, bleach blonde hair tickle my nose. I thought of you, the night before, running around in your new pink pajamas. Your stocky little legs and pony tail bouncing up and down. You are so big. You are so little. I want to be a good role model for you. I want yo to see how hard I work, but how easy it is to drop things if you need me. I want you to know that you can dream big and daddy and I will support you in every way that we can. I want you to think I am a loving mother, a supportive wife, an inspiring teacher, a creative photographer, a good cook, ........ I take on so much and right now I think I have taken on TOO much. There is growing in that too. I want to teach you about the world, and rules, and how rules are meant to be broken sometimes :) I want so much for you and I am so proud of the tiny toddler that you are. You are opinionated, strong, funny, smart, loving, and thoughtful. "I love you more, Mom." <---- the best! I love YOU more, Molly. xo

Missing You

I'm back to work this week and to say I miss you would be like saying a root canal hurts a tiny bit. I enjoy teaching. meeting new people, having friends to talk to during the day, etc BUT I miss having breakfast with you, snuggling on the couch while we finally wake up a little bit, making plans for the day, silly dancing in the living room, random arts n crafts, and simply HANGING OUT. You are so funny and so smart - I just know I am missing so much goodness :( I love you though and any sort of distance does not change that. You bring so much spunk into our family. You are a tiny firecracker full of life and love and I miss you... That's all. See you in 30 minutes! xoxoxoxoxxoxo